scared

still I twitch at the thought of taking another step

a step where I don't know whether or not it's backwards forwards or sideways

but it's a step that You have called me to take

even without a specific direction

is it intentional, to test my faith?

can I be scared and still have faith?

ill let it out now God, I am scared.

but there's something below the fear

the anxiety and the suffering,

there is the trembling in my heart

because I hear the roar of Your deliverance

but I don't know if it's behind me or ahead of me

but I know it's coming

I am already doing these things.

then I'll do what I can,

I hope.