a lot to say but not a lot of ways to say it

let me start with:

thank you God

and 

uh

hm

sometimes less is more 

and more is less

huh

He does not concern Himself with my standards

and my expectations

and my dreams

and my desires

He provides for me the things i need 

and things i didnt know i needed

it is both frightening and exciting

maybe more frightening 

but what can i do 

other than to float with the current and let the waves splash me?

i stepped into the water 

knowing the sea was rough and the wind was blowing

because i wanted to know what it's like

to walk on water 

even if just for a single step. 

i would jump in again and again

and again and again and again and again

just so you can grab me