feb 27

Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.

thank you, God.

progress report

accountability accountability what is the formuloli

God you are shifting the timeline but everything has its purpose because there are

no more coincidences.

pause : January 15

And he said to them, "Come away by yourselves to a desolate place and rest a while." For many were coming and going, and they had no leisure even to eat.

day 56: new

Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.
Isaiah 43:19

I really wanted to run into 2018 with bliss but I ended up tripping on something and straight into mksn's office as a horrible mess and covered in tears. God is funny.

this year, I want to be fearless. fearless as in, I know I have fears and hesitations, but these things are completely eclipsed by God and all His splendor and goody goody goodness.

I want to be vulnerable and unashamed of who I am, so that in every aspect of my life, God can break, mold, and restore me however He sees fit.

I want to be joyful. Life is good, but life with God is good-er.

thank you God for your faithfulness, thank you God thank you God thank you God.

be magnified and glorified in my life, and keep taking me deeper.

Goodbye 2017, I leave you behind because I have a crazy God who is going to do great things, and He needs space.

day 55: after

in the moment of encounter, there wasn't just peace or revelation or fire or awakening or fear or conviction or awe

there was God, and He is all those things and more.

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there was a mountain and the land beneath it,

and above the slopes of the mountain there was a great cloud

and rain poured out from this cloud and onto the mountain.

and from the mountain the water carved its path and flowed to the land

and the water flowed between the trees of the forest surrounding the mountain

and then it flowed even further, into the plains and the deserts

and the rain continued to pour and the land became flooded

even in the furthest places the water flooded

even in the deepest places, the water flooded more.

then you could not even see the land anymore, only the mountain and the great cloud

for everything else was under the water,

and then it stopped raining.

day 54: closer

And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, "This is the way, walk in it," when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left.
Isaiah 30:21

this is what it feels like

to be at a crossroads, to have to make a decision

and either option leads you closer to God because you are walking with Him

to have that choice,

this is what freedom is, isn't it?

day 53: will (again)

God's will is perfect, pleasing, good

in order to live God's will, you must shift your life to Him, not the other way around.

God's will is for my joy to be complete.

You cannot know God's will for specific things if you are not committed to His general will.

test God's will through prayer, the word, experiences, and others

pray about it again.

are you even ready for His will?

I don't think so

and that's what scares me.